Me, Obsession and TVXQ!

Dear Violette,

Right now, I’m updating my blog while watching Super Junior’s old mv for ‘U’. When I see the mv and the song style, I know that it is not overall SuJu’s style. It is not suit them at all. Instead, it is more towards the TVXQ style. Do you know TVXQ? No? Of course not because I’m rarely talk about TVXQ with you.


From what I know, TVXQ stands for a Chinese name which I can’t remember. Find it yourself at the Google. But, the Korean name is Dong Bang Shin Ki or DBSK. They are famous in Japan too, with the name Tohoshinki. The meaning of those name is ‘The Rising God¬†of the East’. But, I warn you. To those who just get into k-pop fandom, beware. Control your love.

Okay, now let me tell you how I get to know this boy-band. At first, as you know, I just only acknowledge about Super Junior, even the first k-pop song that I downloaded was ‘Sorry Sorry’ in 2010. You have to know me, if I had started ‘like’ something new to my life (which never enter my life before), I’ll become almost to obsessed. (deny my own obsession) So, I searched about Super Junior at Google until I found TVXQ in the list of ‘Best Asian Boy-band’. In addition, they are under the same management which is SM Entertainment. I didn’t put much of my effort to search for their songs, mv and etc. I just downloaded 3 songs, ‘Purple Line’, ‘Bolero’ and ‘Show me your love’ ft Super Junior (see? still connected to Suju) Among three of them, I just love ‘Purple Line’. Because it kinda upbeat and I love upbeat song. I also get to know to their members, which contain five members when the first time I know but I’m not really remember each of their names (since I’m too busy memorising SJ’s thirteen members’ name at that time) But, what I knew was 5 members.

At the end of the year, I know allkpop. I know that TVXQ had split up from there. But, I’m just ignored the hot news. The next year, there goes JYJ. Comeback. Consist of Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu. They are the three that filed a lawsuit against SM and they are the one that quit TVXQ. But, it is weird. Although I’m not really into them, I still see and thought them as one of TVXQ though they are not with TVXQ anymore. About a few months later, the other two members comeback and still with the TVXQ name. So, ‘TVXQ’ now left 2 members. From there, I consider TVXQ as Changmin and Yunho only while DBSK is for five of them. (Tohoshinki?)

From five


TVXQ! consist of Yunho and Changmin

JYJ ( Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu )

Two years later, I heard about TVXQ that will held their Catch Me Concert Live In Malaysia. I heard a contest about it from the radio. In addition, Yoochun drama, Rooftop Prince were broadcasted on the channel 8TV. There, I started searching about them,again. I admit, it is tiring but satisfying. Why? Because I can feel how much people love them as five, until now. I can feel how much they were top k-pop star back then. I can find the reason why until now people still love them even they have split up. I can feel the love between the members, how sad they are, until now when they had to separate. You can guess from these reasons that I’m almost liking them as much as SJ now.

I can’t consider myself as a Cassiopeia. Because I just like them now and I don’t know how was the atmosphere when they were no. 1 k-pop boy-band in Korea and Asia and I don’t experience and feel as the members of fan club who ever considered as ‘The Largest Fan Club In The World’ for a few times in Guinness World Record when their idol rise, at the top, in trouble and split up. I also appreciate TVXQ for being the first k-pop group whom held a concert in Malaysia although Hallyu is not spread in Malaysia yet. It was in 2006.

TVXQ 1st Asia Tour Live In Malaysia promotional poster

Back to how I can out of sudden like them although I already know them, it is unpredictable. I try to listen to ‘Mirotic’ (that I ever hated once) and Rising Sun (that I hated once too). Why I try these song first? Because for me, this is their top songs since these are the main song of ‘Rising Sun’ and ‘Mirotic’ albums respectively. Then, I like even more songs. But, I still cannot accept their slow and a capella songs. I need time. Because of this sudden obsessed, I’m eager to watch Yoochun in Rooftop Prince every night. I also choose Yoochun as my favourite member in DBSK. Then, I search for their history (the curiousity of student who loves History subject) and gotcha! It is sad to read their history and how much they have suffer. ūüė¶ Everyday, I search in Youtube for any of their song and one day, I found their short drama. Firstly, I found a video entitled ‘Forbidden Love between Jaejoong and Yunho’. Funny and humor! Secondly, I found their ‘banjun drama’ (don’t ask me what is banjun drama) and their special drama. I forgot the title but Yoochun starred as the main star along a woman. I just watched two parts and what I understand is Yoochun married to the woman when he still as a high school student and the woman is a teacher at his school. From those two parts, I saw four of the members,but no Jaejoong. It’s okay, I’ll watch it later.

Dating On Earth

I have a sad news. My time is short for me to search for more TVXQ/DBSK/Tohoshinki songs and watch their dramas since I WILL ATTEND THE BOARDING SCHOOL. That means I will leave you even longer than usual. I’m sorry for this sad news but I hope that you pray for my best. I hope my future is still there.

In the nutshell, I leave my memories in k-pop world with my love to TVXQ currently. I’m afraid that I’ll miss TVXQ so much. But, it’s okay. I still have holidays for it.


That feeling…

Dear Violette,

for these¬† about one month i have to struggle sitting and hoping so that the MYE (mid-year exam) will finish as soon as possible. that feeling of being an Upper Secondary student is I have to sit the exam for one month long!!!! Nonsense,isn’t it? During this exam ‘season’, i always feel that ‘I’m busy, sorry. I have to study for the next paper. I can’t hang out with my friends’ bla bla bla~ I feel as I have to focus on the exam ONLY and I feel that I don’t have enough¬†time for other activities. But, what can I do? Total of subjects increasing and that’s why it takes one month to finish.

Besides that, I have found my new favourite things ( or K-poppers called BIAS ) and it is a Korean drama. Finally, after a long duration of time I lost my ineterest to most of the thing involving Korea, FINALLY!! the title of the drama is…..


To those who have watched the drama, i know that you already know (WTH?) . Joo Won and UEE. I am watching UEE’s dramas currently that aired on TV ( i’m give on watching dramas online) which are Ojakgyo Brothers and Birdie Buddy. I hope that I can stand to watch it until the final because Ojakgyo Brothers have 58 episodes, dear! Hope it can make me enjoy a litte bit right now.

That’s it.

UP 1 – Day 4 & 5

Dear Violette,


Kimia , 0800 – 0900 hrs

This is the starting for the 2nd of stressful day after yesterday (13/3) .

My comment : I left the diffusion question. Actually, I had thought about it, but my stupidness ‘overcome’ everything. Fine, forget it.

Biologi , 0915 – 1015 hrs

20 objectives, a few structured questions plus 2 essays questions.

My comment : Suck subject, suck paper, like hell. Can I just drop this subject and take LK?

Geografi , 1200 – 1300 hrs

My comment: I hope I can score for this paper.



Pendidikan Jasmani dan Kesihatan aka PE , 0845 – 0945 hrs

The final paper on the final day. But, I read it as it is Bio paper ( the concentration when I read ) and I end this stressful week with bliss.

My comment: My favourite teacher made this paper. And I answer it like .. heaven?


Another story to tell you,  I saw him today. He had to take the test ( re- seat ) since he left for that sport competition. This is the fate for athlete. But, I heard that none of our athlete win. I hope the balance 2 days next week will bring medals. Good Luck for them.

#nowplaying Inilah barisan kita, that patriotic song that I love the most. #PrayforLahadDatu


UP 1 – Day 1

Dear Violette,

I feel it is nonsense as many students seemed stressed for this test. Frankly speaking,¬†it is just ‘test’¬†. To test us. Okay, put aside this distress thing, I want to write full report for today.

Bahasa Melayu , 0915 – 1015 hrs

New format, as I told you. Rumusan ( 120 words limit ) , Pemahaman and Tatabahasa.

My comment: ‘Biasa je’.

Matematik Moden , 1200 – 1300 hrs

Maths. Since I sat with 3 Chinese ( I’m the only Malay girl ) in that lab table, I could saw their tension in this paper. Really.. scary.

My comment: I confused with those 2 questions.

Pray for me so that I can answer Bahasa Inggeris, Sejarah and Pendidikan Islam tomorrow.

p.s.: Why I can’t see my crush every time after I decide to like him? So irritating.

Should i feel that way?

Dear Violette,

Last week, i just finished the trial. Starting from the last day, i have received the result. Firstly, and the one that i’m awaited for, History marks. Frankly writing, i’m slightly disappointed. Because there is somebody else that get 100 marks for the paper, breaking my record for the test in March. Yes, i’m disappointed. Until i feel that i cannot answer KH paper (the last one) on that day. Until i feel i don’t want to talk to that person anymore. But, what i can do..

But, yesterday, i just realised something. Liking any subject doesn’t mean that you have to score 100 for it or getting the highest mark in the class instead the whole form 3. If you like that subject, ¬†you will answer it with ‘love’. You will not getting too disappointed if you doesn’t get as stated before because you know you love the subject and get the highest mark is not a big issue. Why? Because if you think you have to get the highest for every subject that you like will make you stress soon you will dislike the subject slowly if you fail.

In a nutshell, just like all the subject and try to not be the one that crazy of ranking. Just relax. i’m trying to be that way. That’s why, i’m envy to those who just relax whether they get good grades or not and as example, my brother.

Insyaallah, i will post the result. i’ll keep this promise since trial (for me) not a big issue. i’m more nervous for the real PMR.

a week more to Eid. ūüôā

(p.s.: today, i went to a shopping complex to buy the baju raya. It was tiring but i think i have fall in love for the first sight. i saw a boy, wore Barcelona jersey, he had his earphone on and wore a cap. Seriously, he was cool!!! i think he also wanted to buy baju raya with his family. i called him ‘Barca Boy’. i hope that one day i will meet him. please, Ya Allah…)

Buang Tabiat

Dear Violette,

an incident happened in my class today.

The boy (remember that i mentioned in previous post that he shared the same mind/thought about the stress and burden?) cut his finger today. i don’t know which finger but i’m sure it is at his left hand. okay, relax. the finger doesn’t broken off (putus) fully but the blood looked overly flowing. maybe his artery has been cut. the blood seen everywhere, luckily not on my desk. maybe he shake his hand because he feel hurt (of course!) and the blood ‘spread’ everywhere.

hmm… i’m so sorry about him.